I'm a Happy Runaway

There is no such thing as pure happiness it is impossible to achieve unless you have the thought that everything in your life is perfect but it can't be because someone will only end up hurting you or stabbing you in the back. Full of nightmares and monsters it's too late for most people because they only expect the worst out of people like me. I can't see all the good in people because most people are evil. So when I meet someone who is a true friend I push them away or purposely piss them off. I wish I could start my life over and redo things that make my life a living nightmare because it is one. So for the rest of my life I'm just a happy runaway on the track to find pure happiness.